I am starting to have a healthy relationship with food. I don’t think I’ve ever really had one before. I’ve always wanted to be one of those people that can buy a package of muffins, eat just one and put the rest a way for later.
I started noticing when I began having bread in the house again that I can eat one roll and I’m good. I can have it sitting on the counter for DAYS and not touch the remaining seven. I haven’t had that in so long. I
can could binge on anything if I let myself.
This past week I let myself eat when I was hungry and what I wanted. I didn’t go crazy and stuff my face with candy or ice cream (although we have some in the freezer). Friday I had the most amazing salad for lunch. I’ve been eating a lot of protein and fruit. Mass amounts of fruit. It’s like candy to me I think.
This morning I worked out (35 minutes of cardio and 39 minutes of weights) and proudly enjoyed a nice red velvet muffin for breakfast. That’s it. Just one. The rest of the package is sitting on the counter. And I didn’t even WANT to have another one.
I’m not saying I’m “cured” of my food issues and I’m not saying there won’t be days I won’t eat two muffins, but for me this is a HUGE deal and a giant stepping stone.
Don’t think that I don’t want to lose weight, but right now I’m just working on me.