I am starting to have a healthy relationship with food. I don’t think I’ve ever really had one before. I’ve always wanted to be one of those people that can buy a package of muffins, eat just one and put the rest a way for later.
I started noticing when I began having bread in the house again that I can eat one roll and I’m good. I can have it sitting on the counter for DAYS and not touch the remaining seven. I haven’t had that in so long. I
can could binge on anything if I let myself.
This past week I let myself eat when I was hungry and what I wanted. I didn’t go crazy and stuff my face with candy or ice cream (although we have some in the freezer). Friday I had the most amazing salad for lunch. I’ve been eating a lot of protein and fruit. Mass amounts of fruit. It’s like candy to me I think.
This morning I worked out (35 minutes of cardio and 39 minutes of weights) and proudly enjoyed a nice red velvet muffin for breakfast. That’s it. Just one. The rest of the package is sitting on the counter. And I didn’t even WANT to have another one.
I’m not saying I’m “cured” of my food issues and I’m not saying there won’t be days I won’t eat two muffins, but for me this is a HUGE deal and a giant stepping stone.
Don’t think that I don’t want to lose weight, but right now I’m just working on me.
I’m sick. I really don’t know how this happened, but it did.
I managed to get my hour of cardio in this morning and some grocery shopping, but that’s about it. I walked Izzy when I got home and I’ve been pretty useless since.
On a happier not, I haven’t binged in over 6 weeks. My eating hasn’t the greatest, but at least I haven’t been stuffing myself with cake, cookies, ice cream and candy. I’ve even had bread in the freezer for a month and I haven’t inhaled the whole thing. I am so happy that I found Brain Over Binge.
Hopefully this is a cold and nothing else. I have so much that needs to be done around the house. I was so proud of myself for getting up early and hitting the gym and grocery shopping all before 11am on a Saturday morning.
Being sick is just not okay.
I was incredibly happy to see this tonight.
via my instagram
Cynnamon is finally attempting to come out of hiding. The poor thing has been hiding for almost a week. I guess it’s hard at almost 17 years old to get used to a new house after living in the same apartment for your whole life. But, tonight she seems to finally realized she’s in a safe place and it’s okay to come out and look around.
Tomorrow we go back to the apartment and clean up anything we left behind. I really don’t want to go back there, but I know we left a few things and the place could use a good vacuuming and mopping. Plus, the husband needs to get his motorcycle out of the garage. I don’t want to go back there.
What a I really hope to do this weekend is get my home gym set up. If we can get the apartment all set (we are paid up until the end of April) I want to get the home gym set up on Sunday. My treadmill is set up, but the Bowflex isn’t and all my free weights are packed away. I don’t have time to do all the things I want to do. The husband leaves in a week and I want to spend as much time with him as possible.
I’ve now gone 26 days binge free thanks to Brain Over Binge. I’ve never been so proud of myself. Not even when I lost 130 pounds or when I ran my half marathon. Now, I’m reading another book called Diet Recovery 2. I’m it’s also opening my eyes and I’m hoping it will end my diet struggles. I need to just be ME again. Since I stopped binging and worrying about food, I’ve been the happiest I’ve been in a very long time.
What are you most proud of?
Saturday was moving day. By 10pm Saturday night the husband and I were passed out on the bed exhausted. But, we’re here!! It’s so quiet in the house. No one stomping above us or slamming of doors below us. It’s pretty awesome.
I brought the cats over the morning of the move. Both Molly and Bradley have adjusted pretty quickly. Cynnamon not so much. She is sulking in the master bedroom and freaks if you try to bring her out. I brought food in there for her because I haven’t seen her eat.
Here is Bradley (from my Instagram) this evening when I got home from work tonight:
I think he was watching the dogs across the street.
We still have to unpack and get things straightened out, but we’re here!
I’m finished reading Brain Over Binge. What an amazing book! And such an eyeopener. And I haven’t binged in 22 days. I’m so happy and proud of myself.
What did you do this weekend?
Have you ever moved? Do your pets handle it okay?
I’m off work for the next four days. That means lots and lots of packing and cleaning and getting ready to move into the house. Yes, the closing was the 5th, but we have the apartment until the end of the month so we have PLENTY of time to get the house ready.
Did I mention my neighbors have chickens?
Chickens. It’s like I live on a farm or something. But, I quickly learned that chickens are GOOD to have around. They eat bugs. Like ticks, spiders, etc., etc. And that got us thinking maybe we want chickens? I mean, we have a huge yard. HUGE!! And I yesterday my coworker and I went to the Tractor Supply Company next to our office and look at what we saw?
Babies!! Are they not the cutest little chicks every?? Seriously. I want them all. They had ducks, too, equally as cute. The husband and I both had chickens growing up, but that was a very long time ago.
A very Happy Birthday to my sister, Ellen!!
Don’t be jealous of her footie pajamas’s. We were truly the classy ones in the neighborhood.
Again, I’m going to talk about how much I love the book Brain Over Binge. It’s amazing. I love it. And if you have a binge problem like me, I totally think you should check it out. No binge in a week and a half. It’s a miracle.