The picture that shocked me

The wedding this past weekend was wonderful. My brother in law and my sister in law (I know not technically but whatever) are now in Hawaii. I’m so jealous. The pictures they are posting on facebook make me want to DIE!! The wedding was fantastic. The bride looked AMAZING!! The food was outstanding. And everything went perfect. Well…almost perfect.

The flowers for the groomsmen were forgotten back the house, but I went back to get them. I don’t think I have ever seen my BIL so upset before. I didn’t even think. I just grabbed the keys from his hand and jumped back in limo. I wasn’t in the wedding, so I didn’t have to be there early. And the wedding went on when I got back. No big deal. My BIL is like a brother to me and it was the least I could do. I’ve watched him grow up, I’ve known him since he was 12 years old and I was happy to do it.

We ate, we drank, we danced. We had a great time.

Then I saw this picture.

1150323_653532121337932_58154615_nI said to my husband “Why did you let me get so fat?” And he said, “You’re beautiful”. Which is really sweet of him to say and I don’t think I look too horrible, but I was really shocked at how big I look. And I’m not happy about it at all. And even though I have said this a million times over the past few months, I am kicking myself in the ass and getting back on track. THIS picture has got to be in my mind on the mornings I don’t want to get up and hit the treadmill. Or the nights I want to eat that pizza or ice cream.

I actually haven’t worked out since Friday. I didn’t get a chance to use the fitness center at the hotel we stayed at for the wedding because we were just so busy. And I’ve been pretty doped up on Benadryl these past few mornings due to my Angioedema flaring up, but tomorrow morning I plan to get in a good workout. I need to. It’s been too long.

Here’s to losing the weight!!

Welcome, August!!

Hello, August! I’m so glad I’m not spending your wonderful first day dry heaving into a garbage can.  I truly thank you for being amazing already.

Speaking of that, did you read or hear about Cyclospora? Pretty sure that is what did me in last month. I had salad that Friday before my vacation. True story.

Right now I am currently enjoying the high of a 4 day weekend. The big wedding is Sunday. The weight I had so hoped to lose? Didn’t happen. I’m not stressing out about it. I found myself a beautiful dress that I can’t wait to wear and Tuesday I spent a wonderful day with my Mom getting a pedicure (my toes are so adorable), having lunch and doing a little retail therapy. I just need the perfect pair of shoes.

I cannot wait to see how handsome my husband looks in his tuxedo. Pictures will be taken.

August is a new month. I have big plans. Beating myself up is not going to get me anywhere.

And a BIG Happy Birthday to this old girl who turns 17 today.2010-12-07 20.38.3317 years ago I found a tiny little kitten who was covered in fleas. She hissed and spit at me and tried to scratch and bite me. I took her into the house, cleaned her up and bottle fed her. She took to the husband like a true Daddy’s girl. Now, Cynnamon still tries to scratch and bite (still the wild one), but she is beautiful old lady. We love this cat and she made the husband love kitties.